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#motd ...for my #therapy session. I think I keep my therapist filled in pretty well. And I love how honest I can be with her. I let myself freak out. I allow myself to sulk or sit quietly, I cry, have shuddering sobs, I laugh, I show her pictures from my Instagram if I went on an adventure.... and after I showed her the aquarium and beach shots, she mentioned that she did her thesis on #EcoTherapy; she told me she noticed I lit up and calmed down. She is encouraging me to go to the beach more. And go outside more. And to challenge myself to go places alone more... but baby steps. She offered to have some of our sessions walking around outside with her. I'm nervous since I don't know the area and I'm scared of bad things happening. But maybe I'll try it sometime. I also told her about my going to the chiropractor once a week as well. And when my chiropractor clears me for activity, I'll join a gym and do some #aquaticExercise, which should be easier on my already aching bod. I don't want #fibromyalgia to hold me back from physical activity. Or work. I want to see if I can work through the pain, somehow. But also not damage myself or overexert myself, or I'll get sick/freak out. ...anyway. After I graduate from aquatic exercise, I'll be signing up for a women's self defense class. Also, my chiropractor, gym and pharmacy are all in the same strip mall area, close to my neighborhood. So I'm more comfortable being alone along those strip malls. Fuck you #agoraphobia. You're not stealing my life anymore. ....for much longer, at least. ..... #babysteps .
#bipolar #GAD #panicdisorder #MDD #hyperthyroidism #mentalhealth #mentalillness #recovery #browneyes #smokeyeye #trichotillomania #chronicpain #exercise