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Edited// You Don't Know What Love Is.
From the very beginning I was torn between two worlds.
Much alike two rival leaders fighting for power in one country, two opposing forces battled for power in my mind.
A nihilist Buddhist would be the best way I could think to define myself; contradictory I’m aware.
To explain this I would ask you to imagine something, to imagine holding the belief that life consists of nothing but emptiness and pain but simultaneously and in equal parts, believing that there is meaning in everything, that life is a blessing and a gift and must not be disregarded.
These conflicting beliefs would be a repeating pattern throughout my entire young life and cause me to live in a state of chronic cognitive dissonance, a state of constant brawling between seemingly logical conclusions and romanticised, spiritual wishes.