3 hours ago
Not me! 👆🏼👆🏼👆🏼Grab a snack(it’s a long post).
However, maybe it’ll help some understand if you had questions you didn’t want to ask before. Deciding to have stomach surgery wasn’t easy. I laid awake at night , I cried, I had anxiety, I wondered if I’d regret it.
I read this girls article and it hit my soft spot.
I felt like I had wrote it myself.
I could tell you every single way to lose a pound, to work out , or to be healthier in general. However, I came back to the constant weight yo-yo.
Lose 25 pounds, gain back 40 pounds.
Lose 50 pounds, gain back 60.
This time, it doesn’t come off as easily as before.
My hunger felt insatiable. Probably mostly mentally, or the fact that I had stretched my stomach so far I really was always hungry.
At my heaviest , which I’m not ready to share yet..
I stopped looking in mirrors. I stopped buying jeans because I didn’t want to face the reality of the size on the tag.
I was depressed in the worst way. I didn’t want to leave my house. I lied, a lot and I’d find reasons to cancel plans because I didn’t want anyone to see me and think “did you see how big Brittany got ?” I’d cry because I was overweight only to comfort myself which would cause me to hate myself even more.
Hence my blog and Instagram name ..
Eat. Regret. Repeat
It was a cycle. A new normal.
Could I have just “gone to the gym and ate healthier”? Yes, but I’ve been doing that since I’ve been old enough to understand calories and how to count them . I was exhausted. Literally.
Physically, I was winded going up the stairs.
My butt barely fit in chairs with arms. My worst fear is a group of friends would suggest going to an amusement park and I wouldn’t fit in the roller coaster. Or they’d suggest going on a bike ride and I’d be left in the dust .
I feared everything and anything physical .
I could go on and on with this, but having the surgery has been life changing for me in more ways than you could imagine .
Was I embarrassed to admit I lost such control of myself that I needed to undergo a serious surgery, you bet your ass I was .
However , now I just embrace it.
I’m happier and on track to being a healthier version of myself. (Continued in comments)