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Personal "female anatomy" issue alert! That means if you're rockin' male appendages/projections then PLEASE keep scrolling.
This is actually really hard for me to share, but one big lesson I've learned in this life is that no one should ever feel like they are alone in the various "struggles" of life and I've been inspired by so many others who keep fighting the good fight and paying it forward.
So here goes.... here's why I was a bit overwhelmed today.
In October I had surgery to remove one of my bartholin glands that kept developing a cyst and getting blocked causing unbearable pain and discomfort. I had to have it lanced 5x, attempted marsupulations 2x then finally the last and final attempt for normalcy was to just have the gland removed. Well that came with it's own risks that as a female are scary, including nerve damage, painful numbness, disfigurement etc.
C'mon ladies tell me you wouldn't be scared! That's a lot of pressure and definitely affects a lot.
Well nealry 6 months later and I'm still experiencing pain/numbness. I went to my doc today to check in and it turns out I need MORE fixing. Another surgery. More pain and healing time, more feeling broken and defective.
Yes I cried. Yes I feel defeated and frustrated.
The old me would have hung on to these feelings and felt like garbage for days. I'm finally at a point in my life now where I realize there is good to come from this. Opportunity for growth in so many mental/emotional/spiritual aspects. I will be fine. God is going to do something great, even if I have no idea what it is yet 😉