a few minutes ago
Real life sometimes isn't the positivity that I portray on social media. Life is real, and sometimes its hard. I had one of those days. I like to believe I am a good person. I pour love and support into the world constantly...sometimes too much that it becomes a flaw of mine. I exhaust myself daily to lift people up who feel so incredibly lost and defeated that sometimes they don't want to go on another day. I wipe tears from parents' eyes when they feel that they aren't enough for their children and I give them hope that they really are everything. I listen to kids who have rocks in their life suitcases bigger than many adults can imagine and I teach them to be resilient despite all of it. I give everything for my Arbonne team when they need me because I want to empower others to dream big and reach their goals, it's not impossible but it takes belief and support. I am constantly giving, it's just who I am, but sometimes my well runs dry. Today someone hurt me, I left to work only to see the word CUNT scratched across my driver door. It hurts my heart to think that someone either dislikes me enough to do that, or that someone was so broken and numb that they had to hurt another just to feel something. It comes with a pretty pricetag, one I couldn't afford with everything else that's happened to me this month, but I put it behind me because there was a mom at work who needed me. It didn't end there. I had a stressful day, I got yelled at by parents, I was made to feel like I wasn't enough, I had too many email referrals to keep up with, I had a devastating call about a family, I was let down by someone at work...and to top it all off, I almost hit a deer tonight and went into the ditch, ugh. Today just wasn't great. That being said, tomorrow is new and im still here, I'm still breathing, and most of all, I have people who love me. Lance had this for me when I got home. I don't have much to say because my heart is so full that really can't explain it, but I can say one thing...this is love and I am so grateful 🖤
To anyone who reads this far, thank you for being a part of my life and thank you for caring, I really truly love you guys.