a few minutes ago
So, here's the challenge I'm facing. The more I am becoming my authentic self, the more I feel I shouldn't hide who I truly am from the world. The more I don't give a F* about people judging me or letting people down because I'm not their perception of "fit" or of anything else.
I love me. I've always loved who I have been, I love who I am today and I love the person I am becoming. I am a woman of love, compassion, unique talents, inner beauty, intelligence, humor, strength, wisdom and good intentions always.
So lately I haven't been posting. Because I struggle with this. And I say all of this but yet I'm not ready to reveal my identity. People in my real life STILL to this day don't know about my online "missionfitchick" account. It makes me upset that I have to mask this part of my life. I have shitty people in my life who are fake and judgmental. But this is me. And a piece of me doesn't want to give up this secret online diary of my health and wellness journey. And maybe that's OK. It allows me to be real, open and honest. I'm not here for popularity. I'm here purely to document my journey and it helps to have support and friendship from you.
Sometimes it's just easier to share your deepest thoughts with strangers. I'm also finding that true as my reiki clientele is growing quickly and I'm meeting so many amazing humans with really deep rooted life challenges. I have a handful of very supportive people in my life but there's something different about being able to share freely and openly with someone who doesn't already know you. 💕