32 minutes ago
I did it again last night. and now I'm scared. scared that this 'getting back on track' thing is just not for me. scared that I messed up for good. .
ever since I had that stupid ass pizza, I haven't been eating as great as I was before. all my cravings came back, and I've felt this unbelievably strong desire to eat all the wrong foods. I did okay for a couple of days, but yesterday, I was unprepared. (as much of a cliche as it is, preparation IS key). I didn't really have what I needed to make a healthy and yummy lunch at home, and I didn't feel like going to the store. so I waited, and waited and suddenly it was 9 pm and I hadn't eaten anything since breakfast. and by then it felt inevitable: *of course* I was going to have pizza! I was *starving*. and throw some cheese sticks and ice cream in there, too. .
I was so proud of myself last week, I was doing so good, and actually enjoying every single thing I ate. why did I have to mess it up? why do I *always* mess up?
#realtalk #rant #disappointed