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It's Monday (duh) unlike my usual Monday's this one is busy(ish), I had a doctors appointment this morning to talk about my meds and run another depression/anxiety 'test'. I try to stay transparent about this stuff, I know so many others here deal with it too and I want you to know that you aren't alone.
My last visit, about a month ago I was placed on Abilify (no idea how to spell it). It was just for 30 days to see if it would help to improve my already maxed out meds.
Back story; I had an episode in February where I contemplated self harm (for the first time in my life). It was scary as hell and resulted in a LOT of tears and 3+ hours on my phone with my mom, followed by booking an appointment with my doctor. My depression was spiralling out of control and sometimes really freaking scary things happen to make you realize it. That was mine. It took me 100% by surprise and completely shattered any belief I had in myself.
Back to today; Thanks to the Abilify, exercise and even stricter diet (self imposed) I have improved GRATELY!! Abilify is here to stay as well as my antidepressant. I feel so much better, more productive and guys, genuinely happier. My only teeny complaint? I’m more irritable/shorter tempered. Is it severe? No, it really isn’t, its quite minor to most. Just happens to be the one thing I noticed lol.
My ‘point’ I guess, is this: if you need medication, if all else has failed, IT IS OK TO BE ON IT!! I see so many people bashing others for needing medication for mental illness and it drives me crazy. If it was blood pressure or heart medication no one would bat an eye. This is me telling you: You are NOT broken, overthinking, just need to relax/get air/ seek nature (but really, you should). I thrive in nature, but I still need my meds <3 You’re still an awesome bad ass with medication. You do you because I sure as hell am not letting my meds go!