2 days ago
Having a bit of an emotional morning today...☺️ You guys know me...🙄
For some reason, the last few days have been...rough. I felt down, had moments of anger, worried more than normal and just felt like crawling into bed, putting my covers over my head and sleeping. And let's be honest - I could've easily decided to have a drink. In fact, I was talking about it a lot to a friend. 🤦🏻♀️ It's really hard to admit that to you guys, but it's the truth. .
It's a trip because the first couple of months, I felt really strong, and when the thought of drinking crossed my mind, it would just slip right back out. 🙅🏼 But I NEVER took my sobriety for granted. All the reading I've done, and the support I sought out told me that not every day is going to be easy, and that was always in the back of my mind. And guess what? This last week was one of those times that it WAS NOT easy. .
I knew I could never be complacent and just take for granted that I'd be strong enough to abstain. You have to keep the reasons that you gave it up in the first place in the forefront of your mind. For me, two of the BIGGEST reasons are here in this picture. Without alcohol, I'm a better mom. Sure, I was holding it down before, but I'm so much more present for these girls, and they deserve NOTHING less. I'm a better mom, wife, business owner, coach, and person in general. The parts of my mind and heart that have opened back up and that I've discovered since I've made this change are irreplaceable. It sounds dramatic, but for me, taking a drink is like saying fu&% you to myself and everything I dream about and everyone I love. .
As I sit here writing this, it's crazy to me. I'm sharing with you that I'll NEVER drink again. That means all of you are part of my accountability, and I'd be so ashamed to let you down. And that's HARD to think about. EVERYWHERE you go, and everything you do, there's usually alcohol there. Dinner, parties, Christmas, New Years, ANYTHING. You're like the odd man out if you don't drink. But I'm okay with that.
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